Archive: The Present (Penned on this site’s inception, 3/18/02)

As stated in the page about Nick, I’m currently in the process of packing up and getting ready for relocation into my new TechStar condominium, in Seattle WA. They’ve done a “fast track” construction of a large number of condos there. Essentially “Lego” construction with a brick facade. I doubt it’s the highest of quality but I don’t care. I’d pay anything to be on the spot where my love disappeared in May. And most people will pay huge amounts to be on the location, perhaps the best spot in all of Seattle, for view and proximity to places of business.

The date the condos should be ready is mid-April ‘02. Less than a year from Nick’s disappearance and just over 7 months from the date Rose Red was razed. Amazing how fast construction goes up in desirable areas; and amazing how a corporation with enough money can get the ball rolling at lightning speed. TechStar is one hell of a well-oiled machine!

I’m bringing all of our belongings, every last one. Most of our furniture is old and shabby–we picked it up at garage sales and hand-me-downs from my family. But it was ours, and it was so special to us. The chairs where we relaxed, the bed where we slept, and made love…I cannot bear to part with any of it.

It’s taken me these long 10 months to put together our story for all of you to read, because it’s been intensely difficult for me to cope with Nick’s absence. I feel like he’s so close–in my dreams, in my thoughts–but so very far from me when I’m awake. It’s my hope that moving to the Rose Red site will help me be physically “with” Nick, while at the same time working to free his soul from that which binds it. If he can pass on and wait for me in paradise, he and I both can be at peace.
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